FUZZY SOCKS AND CHRISMUKAH

It’s December 2nd and now I am beginning to feel the holiday season energy. I was pretty much in denial for most of last week, didn’t want to accept the fact that yes, Christmas is here again. I am sorry for the cliche’ but, life did just whirl past me this year. Soooo much has happened, to say the least. And while it is easy, real easy to let the sadness and depression keep me down, I am working on seeing the light in all this darkness. Afterall, without the light there is no dark and vice versa.

In our most difficult times, I think it’s really important to focus on all that we are grateful for. This much I know. I sound like an Oprah column but it is really true. Now as another year closes, a personal inventory I think is in order. Even if that moment of gratitude is but a simple thing, still, that bit of light will give us the strength and clarity to put things into perspective, be in the now and experience moments of grace which we otherwise would pass by and take for granted.

What are you grateful for? What has this year been for you?

For me, this year has been a tremendous period of transformation. I experienced one of the most intense rites of passage – the death of my mother. I also released a record that I wanted to make despite the mixed reviews I seem to be receiving. There has been a lot of confusion, disappointment, sadness – a roller coaster ride of emotions, thoughts and feelings. It has been hard, to say the least, it has been painful yet this is life.

In the moments of deep pain and hurt, I was touched by the kindness of strangers and the love of friends and family. For this I am grateful. In the moments when my head was spinning way out of confusion, I was surrounded by those who held that space for me and let me be where I needed to be, offering their words of advice if only asked. For that I am grateful. I met new friends due to our shared experiences. I solidified old friendships. And I have reconciled for myself that despite how much I miss my mom, I am soooo grateful that I had the privilege of having this incredible person, incredible spirit be in my life – and a part of me.

Sometimes we can believe that there is no method to this madness of life. But if we take a step back, we can see how the destiny line definitely has its trajectory.

We are where we need to be.